Ciremai: Where I Found Things Matter during Climbing

Holo 2017, this is my first writing on you. I have something to tell from my last bittersweet journey to the roof of Ciremai Mountain.

Yes, a mountain. A place where Indonesian youth mostly made their background of Instagram feeds with somekinda wise-like caption and hastag as the ornaments. Tsk.

Lemme get it right. I never like to put myself in labels 'anak gunung', 'pendaki', or 'pendaki cantik' *puke over myself* or anything close. Never had in mind to conquer Indonesia summits existed. No. I just simply love to let myself be in any another places beside my current nest to have some awesome journey whatsoever. I just simply say yes on the very first adventure-call.

Anyway, on my way up, I kinda disturbed by a fellow that had this anyone-please-bring-my-carrier-I-am-exhausted kinda thought in the very beginning of the journey. FYI, this very ‘experienced’girl had made herself over four summits (include; Tampomas, Lembu, Cikurai, Ciremai,) and using #pendakicantik hastag on her Instagram post, lmao. I mean she called herself mountaineer but keep that kinda thought in her brain? Meh.

Well, if you feel you can't carry that burden of your belongings while taking sheers road, better off to the city. Be a city traveler instead. There are lots of hotels you don't need to carry tons of weight everywhere. Easy.

If you insisted to go over summit, please find a fucking porter. Do not be a damn burden to your travel mates, they had even more weight to carry on (if you even notice). Even if you are a female, wait, no. Foremost if you are a female creature, don't act like you are weak. It’s a mountain, you comprehend properly, suck that pain. Don’t make that ‘emancipation’ you bragging about worthless, woman.

But then, off course no one agreed with me because people you met on the mountain were the nicest people on earth, seriously. They will help you anyway.

I don't know, it’s kinda awkward for me glancing at some people awesome picture and almighty quotes of their Instagram post, while I acknowledge their spirit lack of power back then. Well, I guest they've learned something after all.

For me, what I learned during climbing was; you need to bring a spirit fully charged of independence, enthusiasm, and self-responsibility. That’s all. Because the awesome Instagram post was just a bonus, how much you acknowledge your inner power and spirit along the way was the only reasonable reason why you went climbing. Didn't you?


*There's also a first-timer fellow that amaze me because she's very kind and had a powerful spirit. Even tough her boyfriend came along, she'd never act spoiled or having this darling-please-bring-my-carrier-I-am-exhausted behavior. She had responsibility over herself, that was awesome. I like her :)

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What Happened in 5th Grade

I was always wanted to be someone else. Like they all had something I couldn't afford, Wealthy, Love, and Appreciations.

In fifth grade, I want to be like Inggit Narulita, a charming classmate and a humble neighbor.

She lived in a stylish modern big house next to my mother’s inherited (this could only mean: super dull) house.

Inggit was the only child that made it impossible for her parents compared her with anyone. I was the third child of a total eight and had a lot of reason to fight and finally to be compared.

Her father built a pretty little flower-full garden in front of their house with a garden lamp blazed every evening. While my dad was busy digging a deep whole in an open space beside my house making compost from the leftover or yellow leafs. Ugh, dangly stinky.

Inggit had her own room painted with pink and cute bed linen matched its pillows. Books weren’t allowed in her bedroom because she had separated study room. The study room was pretty awesome; I’ve been there several times for group discussions. She had this medium desk with cute table lamp and book storage above it.

Though, my room wasn’t that bad. I had enough space for sleeping and studying at the same circumstances along with my sister. Yes, we even shared the bed.

Inggit’s father bought her a brain supplement so he hopes she'll be good in school and shit. Its strawberries flavor! once Inggit shared her pills with me, she's super kind. I don’t even remember what kind of job my dad had that time, but he had too little money that he can’t afford me even a glass of milk a day. But like every father in the whole world, he’s still hoping that I could be good in school and shit.

At the end of semester, Inggit got the first rank in class and I was okay in the third rank. She's got a new pair of shoes while I got my parents widest smiles and two thumbs from each of them.

The next semester, we both jump down the rank. This time I got myself in the fifth rank, my dad still gave his right thumb though, it’s because my siblings had the worsen grade than mine, haha.

As always, Inggit passed me, she’s in the third rank. But shockingly, after school, for whatever happened inside his dang head, her father threw 'the new shoes' right into her face. She missed school for three days after that.

That particular moment, I know that I don’t want to be her anymore.

What's happened just too bizarre. Just because her father bought her (maybe super expensive) brain supplement and when she got failed, she's the one to blame? I mean she's the one who tried dangly hard for the grade, and her father the one who's upset? Dude, you need a bubble gum.**

It’s okay that I had too many sibling, that's how we learned to share. It’s okay that my dad wasn’t bought me that brain fucking supplement or milk whatever, as long as I eat vegetables and study harder. Its okay that our house really that dull, it wasn’t mine anyway. Its my mom’s.

It's all okay that I didn’t get what Inggit had, because I already had what I have. AND IT'S ALL FAIR.

We deserve everything that happened to us anyway (in a positive state of mind).

I don’t really know Inggit after elementary school. We’re now a perfect stranger. But again, I learn a lot from her, that amazingly made who I am now; the girl who proud of being her-dangly-self :v

SPOILER:


* her father was unexpectedly encounter her hanging out with a boy.

**image source: shutterstock

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23 Craps of Mine

This writing is consider a crap because it's a list of  unimportant things about me that you could die after discover it. And you’ll literary get nothing after reading this, except;

a. You’ll distaste me

b. You’ll still like me, that made you crazy

c. You might have an idea to write your own version of crap

YOU HAVE BEEN WARN

• I sleep better without pillow

• My eyes are half-open when I'm sleeping. Kinda creepy, huh

• I’m madly in love with spicy food

• I give up social media just because people are so fussy about me

• I love strawberry's milk, I haven’t tried the coconut delight though, I might also like it

• My shoes didn't survive my toes, they always wreck after half a year

• I ruined my wardrobe every time

• I rarely succeed buying a proper apparel, on my own

• My teeth had 3 holes, and I haven’t tasted the hell-pain for about eight years

• I'm a coffee person, with milk on it, a lot

• I sweating a lot

• I only act ridiculous to people who ever saw me cry or witnessed me from having a fart

• I often feel out of place among sarcastic people, their rudeness kill my kindness

• I always do a mind game, wondering what will I do if I'd be that person

• I sometimes wonder how people think about me, but never give a dang about it

• I often giggle to a funny thing across my mind without anyone concern

• I had troubles when it comes to stay in touch with old friends

• I think it's a useless thing to do: crying under the rain

• My weird smile is a present from my parents when they're about to abort my outward

• I can’t ride a motorcycle, and never will, because Jakarta's traffic cursed me

• I like to turn money into origami-shirt 

• Reading soft-porn is a guilty pleasure 

• I prefer watching an animation movies in cinema, because it’s worth

• I think horror movies is a forth-world crap

• ‘Try a bungee jumping’ is a top three of my "things I should try before I die" list

• I think religion is very important, finding the God is more important 

• This is crap: I'm  Sagittarian, and I had no idea what I’m gonna do about it

• I wanna learn Parseltongue, since I get into Slytherlin on Pottermore

• I wear casual make-up once in a day, and never re-touch it

This is the end of the crap, the list might be increasing. If you're interesting to made your own crap, please tag me, I'd love to read your crap, ugh :v

*image source: moofookimbob

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September's Good Things

Heey! it's good to see me back filling this dumb blog with words. September has become a great month for me because of...

#harrypotter

My siblings back to their old hobbies on admiring Harry Potter after they found Pottermore which apparently Rowling’s digital wizardly-world. I know right, magic went digital. That’s how two contradictory things finally got married? Well, the magic didn’t feel magical though.

After a few of 'magical' test, Tegi and my big bro Banie are in the same House, Ravenclaw. While my lil-sis Uwie got into Huplepuff, so did A Bagus (Tegi's husband). And guest what? I made myself into Slytherin.Yaay! Please, be careful, I might be seriously dangerous :v

#mulkiardhy

Remember the guy from Bandung whose name identically with me? I finally met him after 7 years bizarre friendship through internet. He's more awesome in the real world though, no kidding. His a great person, I learned a lot from him. In return, I made him ride TransJakarta in rush-hour which's awful, and I had a feeling that he kinda hated it, lol. Sorry.

#theweddings

Three friends of mine having their wedding held on September; Sukma, Dini, and Ka Mujib. I wish they had always blessed with happiness in any condition they'll gonna trough with their new family. ❤❤❤

#thejob

I know I was fussy a bit too much about my boss, the messy job desk, and bla bla bla that made me want to leave this office before three months ended. Now I hate to say this; I honestly started to love my job, I’m getting good on everything, my boss got friendlier, and I started to think that I probably gonna miss all my friend here if I am leaving.

Though, those things didn't actually made me wanna stay, I'll see something after January.

#thecashflow

The stupid me always learn real slow, even after 8 months making my own money, its always ended up for something really stupid. I just realized that I need to manage my cash flow and start investing. Well, it's good to be awake.

#theparents

I'm glad that my dad finally started his new little business, that's a super late but a great start anyway. Hopping he live long enough for me to accept him as good as a father I used to adore.

#thespirituallife

I've been learning my religion deeply to an amazing Guru and wife. Honestly the life got greater after I met them. It such a blessing to know them and learn a lot from them.

I hope your September greater than mine :)

*image source: istockphoto

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